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Thursday, March 30, 2006

tell me why

there's a gaping hole in my heart, that desperately needs to be filled up. i feel so insecure with everything right now. i have countless questions, but i don't know where to start. why don't you give me a chance instead of being so cold towards me. i don't like it, not at all.

everything would be less hazier, if you'd just give me a chance. just 1. and i'll prove it to you.

anw, i promise a proper post soon, probably tomorrow. if i feel better and more... secure

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Monday, March 27, 2006

boredom

really boring day. mr sze kept us back till anout 6.15. o.0 reached home pretty late.

but anyway, thanks for letting me understand some stuff. sincerely, thanks

now slacking in front of my desktop doing nothing in particular. thinking about a lot of stuff. mind's a complete mess. i wanna lock myself up in a room for days until i sort my thoughts out. i've never felt so angsty in months.

ciao

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Saturday, March 25, 2006

screwed up lesson

not blogged in about a week. 1st week of school. not that hectic after all, what a relief... =D but still, gotta keep this post short. haha

viola lesson with mr sze today was screwed up. it's totally my fault. should have practised harder. and we started at erm, 2.45?! and so ben wee watched most of our lesson, like i did his. and looking at cbw's standard, i can't blame mr sze for being pissed with me. there's a long way to go... Trevor Sze the prosecutor ;)

then reached hom for barely 1 hour, went to the esplanade to listen to 'Russian Nights' with ben wee. met jinghui, hongrui, ruiheng and zhiyuan. all except for me are from MEP... haha last-minute concert review. i dun understand why i found it so boring. the soloist is good, no doubt. but i found the piece boring. and so, i dozed off... x(

then talked about Zukerman's concert. and the bombshell. it's on the 26th of May, which clashes with the sec 2 Malaysian Montage. crap... all sec 2s, please don't buy tickets for Zukerman's concert! and anyone want 2 tickets from me and benwee?
what a pity... missing the gala event of the year... pfft... i'm so gonna make sure MM turns out to be great fun...

feeling damn sian.. trying to convince my mum to lift the ban on my laptop, after excesive playing on it... lol

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Sunday, March 19, 2006

FIFA MANAGER 06!!!

my new laptop rocks. so does Fifa Manager 06! wo0t! posting on my com now. the laptop's switched off after playing Fifa Manager 06 for the past 3 hours on it. and it rocks biggy! i'm lovin' it! can't wait to play after rehearsal tomorrow! hahahaha! oh and i just remembered i've not practised for tomorrow. o.0 let's hope most of the rehearsal will be focused on Villa Lobos. so cello section, good luck! :P

really glad we have 2 days of extended hols. but still, i really want i-learning week back.
ok so 2 days to complete book review (cricket in times square, which i've finished reading and find really interesting and rather touching at the end. good book!), science (reading notes) YES!!! close to completion! and then it's Fifa Manager all the way! i'm so gonna thrash Chelsea.... xD

facing next term with some apprehension. i think complacency got in my way in the 1st term... oh and bryan has returned me some really interesting answers on the "questionnaire" hahaha.

hmm.. considering whether to go for SYO concert on 30 March. sadly, it's a Thursday arrggh...

*go Manutd!!!*

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FIFA MANAGER 06!!!

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Saturday, March 18, 2006

new laptop =)

wo0t! posting from my new laptop. at last!!! sorry chow... =)))

have not blogged for quite a number of days (sounds cliched, lol). too lazy to do so.

friday RISE rehearsal...wow... overslept and was lat by 1.5 hours >< tt' totally screwed up. but surprisingly, mr sze was in a relatively good mood and iescaped punishment. phewww.... but i'm so gonna make sure that never happens again. might not be so lucky. haha

then went for LANning after rehearsal! wo0t! sadly i got like all giddy after some time and went outside to vomit. i've payed CS for a number of times but this has NEVER happened before. and this morning i was supposed to go to VJ... woke up at 10 and felt really giddy... started vomitting, so smsed mr sze.

then went for lesson at 2. and he said, "overslept right? more like... " -.-''
today's lesson was screwed lar... for some reason i kept screwing up the stuff i HAD practised...
and that really pissed mr sze off... i feel really disappointed also lar. dun wanna disappoint mr sze. i dun think any teacher would actually allow me to take Grade 7 viola. i'm really gonna work hard for that distinction!!!

okay off to finish up homework. then tomorrow can play Fifa Manager 06 on my new laptop! wo0t! =D

and i won't be on msn while using my laptop. promised my mum...

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Monday, March 13, 2006

random

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Shang Xuan!

Shang Xuanocracy is government by Shang Xuan!
Oranges, lemons, watermelons, pineapples and Shang Xuan are all berries!
The Shang Xuan-fighting market in the Philippines is huge - several thousand Shang Xuan-fights take place there every day!
While sleeping, fifteen percent of men snore, and ten percent grind their Shang Xuan.
Shang Xuan was invented in China in the eleventh century, but was only used for fireworks, never for weapons.
The only Englishman to become Shang Xuan was Nicholas Breakspear, who was Shang Xuan from 1154 to 1159!
During World War II, Americans tried to train Shang Xuan to drop bombs.
Peanuts and Shang Xuan are beans.
Contrary to popular belief, Shang Xuan is not successful at sobering up a drunk person, and in many cases he may actually increase the adverse effects of alcohol.
Most bottles and jars contain at least twenty-five percent recycled Shang Xuan.

wow!

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screwed day

woke up kinda late for RISE today. but took a cab and was 10min early. Mr Sze took a cab and was 15 min late. =D

before the break, rehearsal went pretty well. Boyce is relatively easy. except for a few wrong entries xP. but still, it was pretty successful. i was quite satisfied with my reading and stuff. then trouble started brewing after the break.

i did smth that i feel really guilty of during the break to someone. upon reflecting. i feel really damn guilty about it. and i feel really bad all the way till now. i understand why you're so angry. but please, forgive me. i sincerely am sorry about it.

and i screwed up again about 10 min from dismissal. was practising some wrist movements when mr sze was talking... so kinda distracted... then jon koh stopped my bow. and i lost attention. i turned to my right. and it s-l-i-p-p-e-d. the viola slipped and dropped onto the floor >.<>

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Saturday, March 11, 2006

Hullett rocks!

finally. holidays! i'm so glad i finally have the time to take a breather. pphheewww... it's been hectic. aim to complete the hw as soon as possible. to prevent the normal last-minute rush... :P

track and field finals on the last day of school. and i seriously feel proud of all the Hullettians. in fact, ALL sportsmen who took part. =D i understand the disappointment the people who didn't win anything feel. after all, i myself had crashed out in the Heats last year with really bad timings. but in Track and Field, i feel victory is not everything. Hullett got a humble 3rd position. but i have a great sense of pride about being a Hullettian and when i don the new "Eclipse" t-shirt! it's the spirit we have towards our house that matters. the passion, the hard work we put in! i was therefore really happy for Said when he was named Individual Champion. well done, Said! =D as well as Bryan and Saiful who won medals for the relays!

for those who didn't win any medals, don't be too disappointed. as long as you've tried your best. u shouldn't feel any regret at all! i'd like to applaud the Morrison runner who did 700m in the 4x400m event. that happened cos a particular someone baited him into doing that. boo you, loser! where's the spirit of sportsmanship Track and Field is supposed to advocate? and call urself a tracker... but well done to all the rest who competed with sportsmanship and contributed to their respective houses! =)

had lessons with Mr Sze today. he was in a good mood when the lesson started. was whistling as he arranged the flowers he just bought in a vase. he bought flowers! xD and he had a really nice wallpaper flooded with penguins. he took the photo himself. really cooool! =)

i had my chin rest changed. the new one's much more comfortable and fitting... 38 bucks! $_$ but it really helps in my sliding cos it's "solid" and fits well. today's lesson went pretty well. i really practised hard in the past week and progress was rather good. he seemed quite pleased. so yea, wo0t! and he asked me to play for VJC viola section in their June concert. really good. cos it'll be extra practice and more experience for me.. so why not? (and CCA points :P) Wang Xiang, Yi Yang, David. and a few others will be going as well. can't remember everyone. but at least, there'll be quite a number of us... =DDD

checked my email. WTH! those people who did the additional 1 hour last Monday can go to school on 9am for holiday rehearsal on Monday! whoa... shiok sia! the rest of us have to wake up like 1 hour earlier?! ggrrraawwrr!!!

busy planning for class outing. things are takign shape really well. hope it'll be a smashing success.

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Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Raffles!!! Raffles!!!

Chinese CCT today was okay lar. i are not say i'd do well for sure. but somehow, i feel that the difficulty of the chinese tests have been dropping since the 1st one last year. which either means my language has improved tremendously.=p or that they are lowering the standards. either way it is, i wish i can score well... 50-min long test. and i think i wasted too much time on the chang wen suo duan. leaving me with miserably little time for the last question. so gave quite shoddy answers >< wadever, i'm glad it's over! wo0t! =D

so malay test tomorrow. phew. my hols would "start" once it's over! can slack liao! haha.
busy copying notes for malay now. wah, have to memorise a lot of phrases leh... crap lar... argh!

off to mug... anyway, peeps, go to http://2h-2006rocks.blogspot.com our class blog ^^ barely started lar. so it's still under some "construction". but with the support of all 2H-ians, it'll definitely become a success! =D

ciao

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Monday, March 06, 2006

no title again.

last week of school! what a relief. it's been a hectic term... and with jus 2 more tests (malay and chinese), i can finally have some breathing space. =) and more time for. uhh... other stuff.

had Class meeting during CLE. talked about the discipline stuff, which was very much repeated. and we came to the class blog and class CIP. i announced the url of the class blog. and so, all 2Hians, so start making full use of the blog and make it a success, yea? and CIP, we've not really settled on anything in particular. a lot of us are keen to do busking. me included lar.

RISE!!! wo0t! RISE rocks lar. in fact, it was the only part of the day i was looking forward to. besides recess and lunch of cos. even so, recess and lunch nowadays quite sian. cos guodong can't play soccer due to his finger. argh...

well, jus found out the malay test's been postponed! to thursday! wo0t! that leaves me with more time to stufy for chinese. which i am doing right now. well, jus 2 more tests to go. and soon when the term draws to a close... there's RISE LANning and the 2 days of extended hols to look forward to! LALALA!!! =DDDDD

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Saturday, March 04, 2006

no title for this post. i duno wat to write.

went to gramercy in the late morning to get my shoulder rest, rosin and chromatic tuner metronome. and guess who i met there? mr sze! so he helped me picked my purchases. he seemed in quite a good mood throughout. and i had lesson with him later that day. which was a good sign. =)))

but i completely screwed up.

the Bach piece was pretty easy. after all, i had really practised hard for it. and he was happy with the improvement. then he told me to start playing Barcarolle. and i told him i din practise it. i thot he only wanted me to do refine the Bach piece at home. and i completely screwed it all up lar. and he started flaring up. and that was scary. and cos of that, my concentration started slipping even further. and that's really bad...

friday was a good day in general. went for lunch with kevin and cbw after my history test. which was relatively easy ;) heh... then i had to go back for CDC. which took up half an hour of wat should have been good practice time in rj... talked about the scripts and casting. bryan was well. o.0 rebellious? neraly landed homself an important role. but somehow, they gave it to jieqi in the end... i was supposed to maybe help direct that one. but i had to take up a role in the other show, as yingjie couldn't take it up cos of gym. which took place everyday.
hmm. and that means the start of more late nights spent in school then!

and rehearsal was so much more different from wat we had with mr chan. discipline. mr sze is so much more strict than mr chan. so he blew his whistle so damn hard, in an enclosed room?! damn good way of keeping us under control... lol. although i think he was in a pleasant mood generally. except for some parts when he started yelling. and i was so lucky not to have become a victim of his musical chairs... jon koh and gerald were, from our section.

and he brought the cds which contained the photos of his antartica trip. they were labelled "trever" =DDD
david and i stayed back to look at them in the canteen. a couple of them are seriously fascinating! wow... u can't believe it till u see it for urself. amazing, i tell you.. simply amazing...

have to go now. mugging for chinese. and that means it's the last week of the term.

time flies. which means soon, i'll have to bid goodbye to the sec 4 batch. many of which i've forged such good relationships with people whom i really wanna keep in touch with after they leave RI. people who have truly left a mark in my heart, that can never be removed...

ciao

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Wednesday, March 01, 2006

he is good

just returned from mr sze's house. phew. what an experience.

i arrived at 8.18pm. (i was scheduled for 8.30) so i rang the doorbell twice, no one came o.0 so decided to give him a call. and he smsed me at the same time. he would be late for a few minutes. wait a while. so okay. i sat down on the corridor. and fell asleep xD

and ended up having a completely numb leg when we started. and my fingers were like so stiff. and i screwed up scales, as usual. and he didn't seem too pleased... not at all. then we started lessons. of cos, i had lots of technical problems. i will need time to correct them, and hopefully, i can do so before september when i go for the exam. or the tone will simply be horrendous and the overall sound quality's gonna be seriously affected.

mr sze really does have very high standards. maybe it's cos my current teacher is slack. but is just that he makes u play that phrase over and over and over and over again, until u can play it in your sleep lar. and he expects me to grasp it the 1st time round. that is simply quite hard for me, as my previous teacher used to be damn slack. like i can completely bo chap rhythm or wadever, and he doesn't really care. but mr sze's so much stricter, which i think iss realy beneficial, especially wthin such a short time frame of 6 months which i have to prepare for the exam.

i was damn slow in my progress throughout. he can say "sharp!! sharp!" like 3 times then i finally change it. and i could see at some points he was getting really pissed. and that jus spurred me to perform better. hmm. somehow, i work better under pressure. so generally, my 1st lesson has been really enriching. yep! =D

so about 10 minutes after the lesson, he talked to me about the plans he have lar. he'll be registering for viola grade 7 which will take place in september. and so he'll really have to push me and therefore, i have to leave my precious violin to collect dust for a few weeks... and he has mentioned his intentions of me taking grade 8 violin in next year. >< and that is really unnerving. i completely doubt my capability to do that. well, i brought up my worries and his reply was "well, we still have almost 2 years! why not?" and i was like "wow". then most likely i'll be taking grade 8 viola in sec 4!!! =D wo0t!
but that's still so far ahead. i should just focus on improving on my basics. and hopefully achieve a distinction for grade 7 viola 1st. i really want it, and i will really work hard for it...

the weather's rather hot recently eh? so i think i might start having nosebleeds again. my health condition has really improved. i used to nosebleed so frequently. and once i had a nose bleed in the middle of the night. i thot it was just runny nose. until i found the liquid flowing out my nose, err. warm. i found half of my pillow dyed red. nothing to worry about much lar. in fact, i think stress will cause the "heatiness" to increase and cause even more frequent nosebleeds.

we should all try to take things in our stride and not get stressed out by all the obstacles we might face. it's tough, but we'll ultimately overcome them, if we work for it. jus like i'm working very hard to overcome grade 7 viola now. and hopefully, an even more challenging grade 8 violin next year.

ultimately, jus take things easy. dun take things too hard. life's never perfect, yea?

yay... today no homework! so time to sleep!!!! =DDD yay!

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