Monday, April 24, 2006
it's burning within me
i've been hit by a bout of post-performance blues.
Saturday was Chinese Drama Competition! reached school at 9.30. to do a final run and put on all the make-up, before leaving for Ulu Pandan Community Club. some minor glitches occured along the way. but we still arrived on time, and ready for our performance. after lunch and some rest, we started warming-up for our performance. and soon the competition commenced.
i was pretty surprised actually by the standard of the performances put up this year. the standard seemed to have slipped so much in comparison to previous years. most of the shows lacked depth and were, simply put, booorrriinnng... soon it was time for our 1st play to go on stage. and it was really good. wenjun's antics spiced up the whole performance. and except for the fact that jieqi's shoulder rest dropped off near the end of the show, the rest of it was wonderful! however, i was shocked by the auience's response to the performance. they were laughing at the most inappropriate times. and the humour was so, so.. insensitive. i nearly exploded on the spot... what the hell was the problem with these people?!
nevertheless, it went smoothly. and i was sanguine about the chances of it occupying a berth in the top 10 positions, and proceed to the finals.
and soon, it was our turn. it was really one of our most successful runs ever! although the timing at the start was screwed, we covered up for it so nicely, no one could have possibly noticed. i believe even Mdm Cai din notice it. we were really satisfied with our performance. and i was really happy for the rest of the day.
that is, till i heard about the results.
neither of our plays got into the finals. i was really shocked and surprised when Mdm Cai told me the results over the phone. i'd never ever thought of the possibility that neither of our plays would get into finals. and i'm really disappointed. we're not trying to be sore losers, but we really feel we deserved to get into the finals! it really whacked me hard in the head as i was not ready for it at all!
i'd really like to thank a good friend for supporting me, and talking to me as i tried to come to terms with our failure. thanks so much, yea? if we know we're good, no one can put us down! we'll just go back again, next year, stronger than before!
it still doesn't stop me from suffering from the psot-performance blues. hai...
lessons with mr sze next day was good. i dun find the need to elaborate... i felt that i played pretty well. and he seemed pretty happy. or at least that's what i think! xD
and today marks the start of the RI Lame Jokes Competition! lalala! and at the perfect time too! the ideal time to de-stress as we enter the peak period of mugging for our CTs lol!
why did John throw the butter out of the window?
... because he wanted to see butter-fly! hahahahaheeehooohooohooo!!!! ok LAMEEE!!! hahahahha
and today's match support was great. RI lost to Chung Cheng by a close margin. but the players should feel really proud about it. they fought really hard. andFOUGHT ON! and they have truly shown the Rafflesian spirit depsite not emerging victorious.
i feel really relieved now. after the mad phase of crazy project work, the workload is starting to clear. now can concentrate on CTs le xD